A Saturday on a "Scale"

Yesterday was an ok day. It was very very hot. However Redwood City skatepark was sick. They have a vert wall like Potrero, which is about 13 feet up. It was a fun drop in even though I lost it at the bottom when I first tried it. Nice banks and rails and also a mini bowl. I did however leave my camera in my friends car and won't get it back until monday.


Later on me and the roomies went to the basketball house party. I planned on sipping very little and held myself to that. Only one shot. The house was packed and with the temperature that day, standing completely still resulted in sweat. Ew. Had fun and danced with some people. Cops rolled through around 1:47 and busted that shit up. We left back for the dorms. Dom's dumbass forgot that since he drove to the party that he had to drive back. In other words he had too much to drink. Fail.


I went to my room when we got back with my friend Kortnei because we were tired of dealing with our drunken friends. Prior to that for reasons I still can not understand, someone through a water balloon at my room door. I no longer have my laundry sign or my autograph board because they were soaked. I was very upset. Later on, me and Kortnei watched Dark Knight until 4:30 in the morning. She had to leave because she had stuff to do at 9am. It was nice to catch up with an old friend though.


All in all it was a balanced day of win and fail. I still want to know who the hell ruined my autograph board. It was accumulating since Fall quarter and now its all gone... >_>


"Blame it on the al al al al alcohol" Blame It - Jamie Foxx

Confusion

Is it a sign of weakness? Or is it a sign of insecurities? What does it symbolize?

If I knew the answer to this life would be that much easier.


"No one hurts you like I do" - Konstantine - Something Corporate

Playing Away Games

In all sporting events there are games to be played. Two teams battle it out in fierce competition to decide who is superior. However these teams are not always teams. Some sporting events include just two combatants. Take the gladiators for example. Fight to the death for the glory of the Emperor, or in my case, Empress.

Lately it feels like I am a gladiator in a foreign land were I compete against others from the Empress' land. Always playing away games. At least until Friday rolls around. Friday is my day. My day to play at home and show my fans what I can really do. To show everyone I am capable, especially the Empress.

For the most part I have catch up as it seems I have been losing away games by default. So much lost time to be made up in one day seems almost completely unfair. However unfair the situation my commitment to winning this series will not be swayed. Even should my opponent manage to slay me I will walk away tall with my pride intact and my heart wounded. For my Empress, everything, and anything is worth it for that single Friday.

"take a risk. come take it on me. believe i'm a sure thing.
all or nothing now and i would not trade you for anything." -Set Your Goals - To be continued...

Re-aquainting

Ok check this scenario. There is a person you have not seen in a long time. Something awkward happened between you two but you want to see them again (regardless whether that awkwardness gets closure or not). How exactly does one go about doing it?

Well for starters you need to think about how much this person means to you. Not necessarily in a romantic sense, but in anyway, shape, or form. If the person is just someone you want to see whats up with and you do not care for them, its probably a waste of time to talk to them again. That's your natural curiosity kicking in (all humans have it).

Does this person have a good history with you? Maybe you just had an awkward meeting in the first place and its scratching the back of your mind to make things work. I also advise against any reconciliation. Things happen, good or bad. You can't be in everyone's good graces.

Alright here is the most common scenario. There is a person you used to be really close to. So close you called them best friend at one point. You miss how you could just talk to them about anything but they drifted away somehow. I would advise you to try to reconnect. If they put in the same effort as you, then its definitely worth getting back into. There is a flipside. Some people are just ready to move on. Friends come and go espeacially in todays fast paced world. As much as you miss the things that used to with them, life is going to go on, wether you want it to or not. These kinds of friends generally arise around high school and fade in college.

I hope everyone reading finds this informative or at least midly interesting.

"The hours pass and she still counts the minutes that I am not there I swear I didn't mean for it to feel like this." - Bruised - Jacks Mannequin

John Cheezy For Sheezy.

So John is very happy because he finally accomplished his goal. John smoked out of his mini hookah for the first time. He was a very happy camper last night. Currently passed out on Nicks bed (for some reason because that is kinda homo).

All kidding aside yesterday was the first day of my spring break and I think it started off right. I got to hang out with all my on campus friends at least once this week before they left for their separate destinations. I also got to clear up some drama with a friend which is always a plus.

I think I had a revelation last night. I'm not sure if it was the good water I had or Nick's lecturing but I came to a conclusion; I'm too hard on women. As funny as that is coming from my mouth, Mr. Blunt honesty, I am too hard on women. I admit it. I don't really know if I plan to do anything about this but I feel like my expectations of women are higher than my expectations of men.

I was really trying to think about why. I mean for the most part I treat girls like guys. It could be one of two things: Either it's because all the guys I consider my friends have fewer flaws that set me off or I have some repressed hatred of women (haha). Although a lot (and I mean a lot) of girls have caused me much strife over the years, I don't think I have a psychological hatred of women. Men and women are different, they act different, and annoy me in different ways and frequencies.

My point is this, while I don't rule out Nick's statement, I am not convinced its true. Although women still drive me crazy, its the women who don't know their fucking up that drive me crazier. To give a good example of someone who admits they fucked up, Holly Bok. Whenever shes having a moment, she lets me know "Hey I'm sorry I'm just being a woman right now". I think that is awesome.

However I have sympathy for those who don't know or can't admit their having a moment. I know when I think I'm right, I do not budge at all. We can all get a little stubborn at times and that's okay. We all make mistakes but when you know you fucked up just admit it, espeacially when your caught haha.

"Same ol' decent lazy eye, fixed to rest on you" - Silversun Pickups

Girl + Small Talk + Connection = Ignore Darryl?

Lately I've been having problems with girls. Its not that I can't talk to them or approach them, I can do that just fine. But every time it seems like I'm getting closer to some sort of connection, they stop talking to me. Even if its just a friendly conversation with no kind of flirtage. They just go MIA. What is it that causes this to happen?!

I mean shit, I don't come off as awkward, apparently I'm not ugly if I get their number, and its not like I'm trying to fuck them, so what the fuck?! Honestly there is only one girl I think about often and she knows whats up. I'm becoming good friends with her and there's no complications besides when she goes AFK but I understand why she has to. These other girls could have their reasons but it seems like all of them do this to me.



I don't want to look for anything in particular when I talk to new girls. All I want is to meet them and talk. Its the same when I meet people in classes. Just because I talk to a girl does not mean that I want to get at them. I honestly hope these girls are really busy because there is no reason to ignore me. And if there is let me know, I can handle any kind of rejection.

In other non vagina related news my wisdom teeth are coming in so my jaw hurts like a bitch! Awesome >.>

Any girls out there reading this please enlighten me if this is a trend with most girls, I would love to know.

"Mix the chemicals right dear, mix the chemicals right. Yeah the margin of error is slight. Mix the chemicals right dear, mix the chemicals right. Yeah you know you could save my life" - Thrice- Trust from the album "The Illusion of Safety"

Ah Spring, the Season of Love

March has arrived. There is no denying that. So what does that mean to me exactly? Well for one a new season means jobs will open up for seasonal employers. That is definitely a plus for me since I have been unemployed for almost a year now. Spring also will bring a new quarter.

I have to not only maintain grades to keep a good academic standing, my grades also keep my financial aid benefiting me. So far I have a 2.9, so I gotta step it up. Philosophy is surprisingly not my best subject. Its dragging down my GPA (because I have a C right now).

Spring will also bring allergies. Yes I know I have them year round but when those flowers start pollinating...

On a lighter note spring will also bring a close to my first year in college(if I don't do summer school) and that seems like a milestone. I can hardly believe how long I've been in school now. Strange indeed.

And then there is the cliche of spring, love. I don't really consider myself looking for anything. However there is one person I have been paying attention to in detail. Remember when I said I liked two people, yeah that is out. Although both girls are awesome, the tigress won me over. I think its for the best too, I would never be able to provide both the attention and affection they deserve.

Spring should be an easy quarter for me. I am taking more classes but the breaks are more spread out. Life should be good for spring.

Goals

1. Get over a 3.0
2. Get a damn job
3. Fix up my bike
4. Continue to hunt the Tigress

And not necessarily in that order. I don't have an order I just want to accomplish my goals.

Best I Ever Had - Drake

"We could do it real big, bigger than you've ever done. You be up on everything, them other hos ain't never on it." - Drake

7 Days!!!

It took me a whopping 7 days (on and off) to do my god damn hair. Seriously it takes longer and longer each goddamn time. It makes me consider getting a fade seriously. However now its done for another month or so. Hooray for low maintenance :D

People out there reading this, don't get dreads unless you can afford the shop seriously.

Crush That Ass!

I cannot even begin to explain how many extremes last weekend had. So just to attempt to break it down I will start with Thursday (even though its not part of the weekend). So Nick is bored (as usual) and decides he wants to break balls and buy some new bearings.

So I was like lets go to Berkley to get them (since Berkley is a lot closer in my opinion) but he said Caliskatz in Fremont. Now Fremont is technically the closer city but its also HUGE! So I was like whatever lets just go. So we convince John to go and left.














Everything was going well until we hit epic traffic. I was the most shocked because despite being 5pmish we were away from San Francisco. Who the hell wants to go to Fremont? All kidding aside were stuck in traffic until we find out that there was an accident caused by some woman. Go figure right? We also passed an old man having car trouble and I laughed with some guilt attached.



Long story short it was supposed to be a 20 minute drive and it ended up taking an hour and 30 minutes to get there due to epic GPS fail. Finally arriving at Caliskatz its really not that bad of a store. They have some SBs that I would buy but would never find if San Fran (due to hypebeast expanionism) so I may return to Caliskatz some day.

Friday was an awesome and depressing night for me. Me, John, Nick, Dylan, and Veronica head out to SF for a party I got the invite for. First highlight of the night, "Crush that ass" was born. Now if you don't know the inside joke I can't let you inside, but it was hilarious. We get to the party and it was cool. They laid down some rules so nothing bad would happen but shit got stolen anyways.

John was the highlight of the night. My roomate who believes that most women aren't worth the time, got a number. Now normally who would give a shit. This was different. Litterally John was sitting there babbling nonsense (he was high) and she was eating it up. So she shells out the digits and he didn't even try. Mack status for sure. I had my fun too but nothing like John haha.

The ride back was sad. I being partially drunk was getting way to frisky with Veronica (much to her dismay and my guilt later on) not because I was horny. I just missed a certain person and I took it out on V. Not a good thing to do to your friends. I felt like a real asshole the next day. That is probably the first time I have felt negative effects of alcohol.

But I really do miss her. I know it hasn't been that long since I have seen A.R. (I don't know if she would want me to put her name in this). I just feel the need to see her more often. I know she isn't avoiding me, theres just a lot going on for her right now. It still makes me a sad panda/lion regardless. Hopefully spring will work its "magic" and next quarter will be full of win.

But yeah thats my weekend, shit just kinda happens.

"This won’t mean a thing come tomorrow
and that’s exactly how I’ll make it seem
Cause I'm still not sleeping,
thinking I’ve crawled home from worse than this" - Adam Lazzara

Noteworthy Music Tracks

Everyone has got their taste in music. Some fit to certain labels like punk, metalhead, slow jam(mer), Hip Hop head, etc. And some people just throw their musical tastes into a metling pot (like me).

I would never say one genre is better than the other (because its not true) but here is a list of 15 songs I find to be tasty cuts.

The format for this list and lists to come is: Song Title - Artist. Enjoy

1. The Beltsville Crucible - Thrice
2. Halfcrazy - Musiq Soulchild
3. Same Old Shit - J Billion feat. Clyde Carson
4. Wanted - Pepper
5. Lazy Eye - Silversun Pickups
6. The Man Who Sold the World (Cover) - Nirvana
7. Ain't No Half Steppin' - Big Daddy Kane
8. Ham & Eggs - A Tribe Called Quest
9. Nights and Weekends - The Starting Line
10. Kill the Poor - Dead Kennedys
11. Diary - Alicia Keys
12. Let the Music Play - DBC
13. Emanon - Blind Love
14. Generator - Foo Fighters
15. Change Clothes (Super Mario Remix) - Jay-Z

These are not in any order so feel free to give these songs a listen. If you want any of them just IM me.

Strange Happenings

I love it when I come to San Francisco. This city has so many fond memories that I can't even count on fingers and toes. Pretty much anything and everything happens. You never know who you might bump into or what might bump into you. Although I am exagurating (because shit happens all the time regardless of location) I always say "Only in San Francisco". 

It seems to be a good saying to live by for any San Franciscan. Its kind of a code to live by. I love the spontaneous life in this city. For example only in San Francisco will you find a rich yuppie in a starbucks and a crowd of crackheads fighting over doritos. Awesome right?

In other news I hung out with an old friend of mine, well more like old crush of mine. Most of you know her as Peaches (because thats just what she goes by). Its funny to like someone for so long and then hang with them again and not care in the same way. Its hella funny to me. She doesn't call or even try to contact me since graduation, yet I am still her best friend. Bull-shit. 

I didn't hold it against her of course, hell I didn't mind her acting like we were still close. I just don't understand people that "miss you" but never bother to contact you. If someone misses you shouldn't they contact you? Ah well whatever, it was fun hanging with her anyways. I still wouldn't mind getting with her though, shit she still looks hot. But oh well, I refuse to get sucked back into her charms. 

"Attention, attention may I have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room if only, if only for one second. Hear what I have to say. Oh oooh oh did I mention when I see you it stings like hell that we could have something, that will never happen." - The Academy Is..."

Yeah....Ok Wayne, please stop...

So Lil Wayne has made some dramatic changes to his life over the years. He started rapping at age 10, went from southern gangsta rap to auto-tune failure, and now he wants to be a rock star. Now that is all fine and what have you, if its good. Sublime did a decent blend of that, Linkin Park did it well too, hell, even Limp Bizkit had a decent run. But this shit is just utter failure. Why Wayne why?

Anyone remember when Wayne was good? I do peep this classic.




Is it because he knows that he can make people buy this bullshit? I mean seriously if you haven't heard the single "Prom Queen" you should count yourself lucky. It is utterly disgusting. I would take Hannah Montana over this any day.

Here is the fail, er video...




If you actually got through the whole thing, good job. You have the patience of a Saint. The lyrics are generic as shit, Lil' Wayne didn't even go to high school (why is he writing a song about Prom Queens?!), auto tune has only been used successfully IMO by two songs (Generator - Foo Fighters and California Love - Dr. Dre).

This is just Wayne trying to cater to this days generation. Seriously, everyone wants to wear flannel and skinny jeans nowadays. Hell I own some skinny jeans! But that does not make me a rock star right? No it does not. It will not make Wayne the next Cobain either.


If you need a reminder of the transition of Wayne peep game below





"Lil' Wayne cites Nirvana as an influence in his music"

Hopefully Wayne will do honor to Cobain's name and stop making shitty rock music.


"Change has always been necessary, but its not always a good thing"

Faith

Somethings are worth waiting for. A hot meal, the sun to come up, Digital Photography lecture to end (seen right lol), but everyone waits for things. Life does not always give you what you want up front. You have to have patience and faith in whatever it is your waiting for. There is a certain Fremont girl I am waiting for, just because she interests me.

You know you have something special when you don't have to put emphasis on the friendship. She is just so chill its awesome. She can go from silly and upbeat to serious and focused. I like that in anyone (not just girls) but it means more since I like her. I can't be sure if I am 100% on this yet because I haven't known her long enough. Not that it matters, nobody is perfect anyway (especially not me). Its days like today where I'm glad I met her. She was nice enough to wait for me to get out of hell er stats class, to chill for just a bit. Anyone who goes out of their way to see me wins a lot of respect for me (especially when you risk trouble with the parents).

Jumping subjects, the power went out across the whole campus last night due to a (thunderstorm?) yet the dorms were fine. Thank god for that. I had shit to do. This school keeps making innovations but they wont invest in a back up generator? HAH! Anyways I hope I do better on my Philosophy exam then I did on my Stats (72%). Gotta shoot for that 3.0+ GPA (2.9) currently.


"Time is an illusion of the mind"

A Change of Direction?

So everyday is full of surprises right? So its only natural that new shit happens everyday. Previously I had made a decision to not like a certain girl because I felt she wasn't at my maturity level. That changed today.

I was out doing some Digital Photography homework with her (portraiture to be exact seen below). And afterwords we went to chill in the library so she could print stuff out. She showed me something she did in High School from Youtube and I was shocked. You would never have guessed from her bubbly personality that she was in JROTC. Now this is a girl who is always going around saying nonsensical things for god knows why but for her to have been in JROTC, shes gotta have an adult side to her.

I always figured it was there just because she takes a ridiculous amount of units and wants to graduate early (26 this quarter) yet she stays so positive. It seems like that may be her safety mechanism for not going insane for real. Maybe she acts so hyperactive in order to have some kind of fun throughout the day. It seems logical enough now that I gave it some thought. So I say that I rushed judgement. There is more to this girl than meets the eyes and I intend to find out what.

"Leave no stone unturned"

The Start of Blogging

I figure since I think a lot and write a lot of notes on Facebook (and before Myspace) that I could run a halfway decent blog. I plan on posting only my honest opinions on most likely nonsense and posting some pictures and vids here and there. Who knows maybe I'm going somwhere with this.

Anyways just sub me if you have Firefox but if not just look for the address on my Facebook.