John Cheezy For Sheezy.

So John is very happy because he finally accomplished his goal. John smoked out of his mini hookah for the first time. He was a very happy camper last night. Currently passed out on Nicks bed (for some reason because that is kinda homo).

All kidding aside yesterday was the first day of my spring break and I think it started off right. I got to hang out with all my on campus friends at least once this week before they left for their separate destinations. I also got to clear up some drama with a friend which is always a plus.

I think I had a revelation last night. I'm not sure if it was the good water I had or Nick's lecturing but I came to a conclusion; I'm too hard on women. As funny as that is coming from my mouth, Mr. Blunt honesty, I am too hard on women. I admit it. I don't really know if I plan to do anything about this but I feel like my expectations of women are higher than my expectations of men.

I was really trying to think about why. I mean for the most part I treat girls like guys. It could be one of two things: Either it's because all the guys I consider my friends have fewer flaws that set me off or I have some repressed hatred of women (haha). Although a lot (and I mean a lot) of girls have caused me much strife over the years, I don't think I have a psychological hatred of women. Men and women are different, they act different, and annoy me in different ways and frequencies.

My point is this, while I don't rule out Nick's statement, I am not convinced its true. Although women still drive me crazy, its the women who don't know their fucking up that drive me crazier. To give a good example of someone who admits they fucked up, Holly Bok. Whenever shes having a moment, she lets me know "Hey I'm sorry I'm just being a woman right now". I think that is awesome.

However I have sympathy for those who don't know or can't admit their having a moment. I know when I think I'm right, I do not budge at all. We can all get a little stubborn at times and that's okay. We all make mistakes but when you know you fucked up just admit it, espeacially when your caught haha.

"Same ol' decent lazy eye, fixed to rest on you" - Silversun Pickups

Girl + Small Talk + Connection = Ignore Darryl?

Lately I've been having problems with girls. Its not that I can't talk to them or approach them, I can do that just fine. But every time it seems like I'm getting closer to some sort of connection, they stop talking to me. Even if its just a friendly conversation with no kind of flirtage. They just go MIA. What is it that causes this to happen?!

I mean shit, I don't come off as awkward, apparently I'm not ugly if I get their number, and its not like I'm trying to fuck them, so what the fuck?! Honestly there is only one girl I think about often and she knows whats up. I'm becoming good friends with her and there's no complications besides when she goes AFK but I understand why she has to. These other girls could have their reasons but it seems like all of them do this to me.



I don't want to look for anything in particular when I talk to new girls. All I want is to meet them and talk. Its the same when I meet people in classes. Just because I talk to a girl does not mean that I want to get at them. I honestly hope these girls are really busy because there is no reason to ignore me. And if there is let me know, I can handle any kind of rejection.

In other non vagina related news my wisdom teeth are coming in so my jaw hurts like a bitch! Awesome >.>

Any girls out there reading this please enlighten me if this is a trend with most girls, I would love to know.

"Mix the chemicals right dear, mix the chemicals right. Yeah the margin of error is slight. Mix the chemicals right dear, mix the chemicals right. Yeah you know you could save my life" - Thrice- Trust from the album "The Illusion of Safety"

Ah Spring, the Season of Love

March has arrived. There is no denying that. So what does that mean to me exactly? Well for one a new season means jobs will open up for seasonal employers. That is definitely a plus for me since I have been unemployed for almost a year now. Spring also will bring a new quarter.

I have to not only maintain grades to keep a good academic standing, my grades also keep my financial aid benefiting me. So far I have a 2.9, so I gotta step it up. Philosophy is surprisingly not my best subject. Its dragging down my GPA (because I have a C right now).

Spring will also bring allergies. Yes I know I have them year round but when those flowers start pollinating...

On a lighter note spring will also bring a close to my first year in college(if I don't do summer school) and that seems like a milestone. I can hardly believe how long I've been in school now. Strange indeed.

And then there is the cliche of spring, love. I don't really consider myself looking for anything. However there is one person I have been paying attention to in detail. Remember when I said I liked two people, yeah that is out. Although both girls are awesome, the tigress won me over. I think its for the best too, I would never be able to provide both the attention and affection they deserve.

Spring should be an easy quarter for me. I am taking more classes but the breaks are more spread out. Life should be good for spring.

Goals

1. Get over a 3.0
2. Get a damn job
3. Fix up my bike
4. Continue to hunt the Tigress

And not necessarily in that order. I don't have an order I just want to accomplish my goals.

Best I Ever Had - Drake

"We could do it real big, bigger than you've ever done. You be up on everything, them other hos ain't never on it." - Drake